[JWEB] Kawashima Noel (Noemaru) - 14 July 2022 (Part 3)

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And here's part 3!

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Well then, on to the main topic for today! 💨

From the time of last month’s regular update until this month’s one, I’ve truly been so busy…!

I’ve had all sorts of meetings, and I’ve had some individual work, and I pretty much feel like I’ve been running non-stop without even a pause to catch my breath (well, I did manage to have a campfire, though 🔥), but that’s what a “training trip” is about, in the end.

Being an idol or a talent, if I say too much on this I might come across as unsophisticated, but…

[Come on~ Listen to me for a bit~]

I want to do something like that, so I will!

Hahaha~!

Why not? This is the kind of person I am, anyway.

“This is me”, after all!

It’s not the case that I’ve been actively doing things my way all this while, but somewhere along the way there were times when I was more passive, thinking that I’d just prove myself through my results, and I was pretty fixated on that for a time.

Recently I’ve started doing “tiny solo trips” on my bicycle, and I’ve come to realise that when you’re on your own, there’s really so many chances for you to break free from your passive self, you know.

If you only go into a store when there’s something specific you want to buy, and you just don’t go into the store if there’s nothing in particular that you want to buy, then you’ll lose the chance to encounter / come across something in that store.

But I felt that that was pretty sad, and so I decided to shift gears and start going for things on my own initiative!

That was a metaphor! (The kanji for “metaphor” is really difficult!)

A metaphor based on true fact! (lol)

Once I started doing that I got insanely busy!! (lol)

But I’m really enjoying myself! I’m really excited! It’s like, “Ah, this is what I was looking for!”

To raise another example~ (Ah, the kanji for “example” is much easier*)

[ T/N: “Metaphor” (譬え) and “example” (例え) are both read in Japanese as “tatoe” but written with different kanji characters. ]

You’ll “go” for a lesson, but once the lesson starts you’re “taking” the lesson, aren’t you? 🕺

My style up to now has just been to “take”, and I would just expand my capabilities as much as I could in order to be able to take everything on, and poured all of my efforts into making sure I wouldn’t lose out. But now that’s changed; I’ve started to “reach for and grasp” the things I didn’t know before during lessons~!

When I’m able to do both “taking” and “grasping” equally, then I think I’ll definitely be able to improve!

When I change from “gazing” at something to “looking” (directly) at it, then my stance will likely become more proactive!

The things I’ll need to do will double (or maybe even more than double), and being able to achieve balance will become even more important, and I’ll definitely get waaaaay more tired, but looking ahead, I’ve set my heart on ensuring that I’ll be able to both work and rest sufficiently to create a good cycle, I swear! 💍

Sometimes I look at myself and think that I’m somewhat of a wild sadist. How scary.

But the fact that I’m accepting that also means I’m shockingly masochistic too. How scary.

Trying too hard is no good!

People who can’t take it easy on themselves won’ttttttt be able to take it easy on others, either!

Hahaha~!

That’s! Why! I’ll go about my activities more actively!

I’ve gi~ven up on holding back when I want to be like “Hey, look at this” or “Hey, listen to this”!

The fact that Travis Japan’s appearance on America’s Got Talent got so hyped up was, without a doubt, thanks to Traja-tans, and this path that nobody’s gone down as far as we have, was created by Travis Japan and Traja-tans, you know.

We won’t lose! We won’t!

We’ll win! Together with everyone!

The things that are expected of us, or which are necessary, those will change depending on the medium and the environment, and even depending on the timing, so adaptation is key.

There’d be many things which are like “This way is okay! This way is no good!”, and there’s also times when everyone including me gets mixed up, but it would be nice if, in the future, we could look back at how we lived through all this chaos and think, “Man, that was how it was back then!”

The harder we work now, the more things we’ll have to look back and laugh upon in the future.

If you brew it properly, it’ll be even more delicious. Glug glug 🫖

Our activities will definitely become something that nobody else can emulate.

What I’m aiming for, more than anything else, is to live happily with those who share the same “likes” as me.

I don’t want “liking” Travis Japan to be something that’s temporary, and I don’t want it to become something expendable.

I’ve got no intention of “liking” something that’s replaceable, you see.

I’ve been saying this for a long time already, that debut is like a marriage.

It’s a single event that’s like an agreement, a pledge.

You’d stock up (save up) a lot for that day, and be aware that there might be hardships that may come your way in the future, and get rid of every last one of your worries.

To still think about “protecting” or “being protected by” someone or something even though you’ve moved into a new phase is something intolerable.

So, I have no intention of being that kind of shallow person who thinks that that’s the end goal, that marriage is a “happy end” without paying any thought to what lies beyond that.

Marriage as an event might be really important, but even then I know of many couples who may not be married “yet” but still share many “likes” with each other.

It seems that I’ve grown up surrounded by wonderful friends.

I think it’s good for people to live with their own various perspectives. I think it’s good to reach for happiness together with those who share your (perspectives). I’ve been taught that throughout my lifetime.

If people have seen my originality, that nobody else can imitate; if they have discovered that and if they continue to keep their eyes on that, then I think I’d be able to be together with these people forever!

I think you’re one of those people.

The Traja-tans, of now and of the future. The Travis Japan, of now and of the future. All of us are living through this right now precisely so that we can share our happiness with each other.

I’ve come all this way believing in the originality of Travis Japan. I have faith that I know our strengths and weaknesses better than anyone else. There’s a need to work backwards and figure out what we need to build upon in order to achieve the things that we will need to achieve in the future, so it’s not enough to just deal with what’s in front of us right now; that’s how I’ve been going about my activities.

When trying to clear short-term goals, the less time and effort spent on working backwards to figure out how to clear them the better; but for long-term goals the (time and effort required) is many, many times more.

But I’ve set my heart on getting there as fast as possible.

I won’t lose sight of this one thing.

That’s why, no matter how busy I get, and no matter how tough it is, I’m aiming for the kind of “activeness” that will let me put in as much as I possibly can in order to, through working backwards, obtain the most valuable result possible.

It might be that I’ll have to confront all sorts of facts and realities from now on. There’ll be happy things, but there’ll probably also be sad things that lie ahead. No matter what it is, we’ve overcome everything together so far, so we’ll overcome everything else together as well. All of us together.

To lose out on being happy, something like that is unbelievable.

There might be things that have to be endured. To just focus on those moments would make you think that things are tough. But be it studies, or muscle training, or giving birth, or even the coldness of the shower🚿 at the moment you get in, all of them are the same as this: it’s because of that moment (of pain / struggle), that you can get this result.

I wonder what phase we’re in right now?

I wonder if we’ll encounter anything new from now on?

We won’t lose.

We won’t end in a draw.

We’ll win.

We’ll lay out the preparatory work. For the sake of our future.

Trying too hard is no good!

But to “work suuuper hard!” is okay~!✌️

Even a box from which all sorts of disasters spring, will still have “hope” remaining at the very end.

I wonder what kind of box ours will be?

Will it be Pandora’s Box?

Will it be a tama-te-bako*?

[ T/N: The tama-te-bako comes from the folktale of Urashima Tarou. Urashima Tarou was given the tama-te-bako as a reward and was instructed not to open it. When he got curious and did so, he was turned into an old man. ]

Or will it be a treasure-box?

It would be nice if it was a present-box!

Someday when we open that box, I’d be happy if it was some kind of surprise-box from which much laughter and happiness would come flying out, or if it was a music-box from which beautiful music would play ☺️

I’ll continue to go about my activities energetically and with a smile, okay!

My heart is full thanks to you, you know.

I’m making preparations now so that I can spend my one life happily together with you!

It’d be good if we could light our fires and go forth together from now on! 🔥

Yours ever,

Jul. 14th, 2022

Noel Kawashima

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P.S.

I’m looking forward to next week’s regular update, too!

I wonder what I’ll be thinking about next month?

How will I change by next month?

Fufufu. I look forward to it.

Noemaru will be updated every day!

I’ll try to update you in real-time about my small changes, about (upcoming) events, and all sorts of information, as much as I can!

If it’s good for you, please come and meet me tomorrow, okay ☺️

#Noemaru

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