[JWEB] Kawashima Noel (Noemaru) - 14 September 2022 (Part 3)

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And Part 3!

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Q. (Kie Kie)

Noel-kun, yappo!

Previously, when you guys were going through Genta-kun’s relationship chart for YouTube, I thought the way you utilised the whiteboard was really smart, so I’d like to lavish you with praise!

If there’s another opportunity for you to write on a whiteboard (what would that even be?), I’d love to see you do so again.

Usually, when Travis Japan has various things written up on the whiteboard, are you the one in charge of writing them down?

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A.

Yappo!

Oh wow! That makes me happy!

Please definitely let me take on that job (what would that even be?) again! 😏(lol)

Rather than saying that I’m in charge, it’s more like the person who’s good at it while take charge! Summarising people’s ideas and sharing them in a way that’s easy to understand is something I’ve studied, after all~✌️

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Q. (Suzucha)

Thank you always for your wonderful blog entries!

This is a little sudden, but do you think it’s bad to be unable to forgive someone? Noel-kun, you’re so tolerant towards both yourself and others, and I want to become like you, but it’s kinda difficult… There’s times I think that way.

I’d be happy to hear your views, Noel-kun!

I love you now and always! I’m cheering you on!

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A.

Thank you for always reading!

This is a little sudden, but I don’t think it’s bad to be unable to forgive someone!

That’s because not being able to forgive someone represents the limits of your “current” self. And the act of forgiveness is often said to be a good thing but I don’t think that’s always the case.

There’s many different situations, I think, but if it’s something truly truly bad then let the law judge it; and if it’s that you can’t share the same perspective as the other person then maybe a day may come in the future when you can do so; and there might be times when the other person’s conduct just cannot be excused from a logical standpoint; and I don’t think you need to feel like you should have to forgive others just because others are probably also forgiving you for things all the time.

It’s give and take, I think~

Don’t be too hard on yourself, alright.

You say you love me, and it’s the same for me! I’m happy to share the same amazing perspective as you!

I’d be happy if you could build similar bonds with other people around you!

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Q. (Tenjiku)

Which historical figure do you respect?

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A.

My gramps.

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Q. (Arinsu)

Noel-kun, out of the new moon, crescent moon, half-moon and full moon, which do you like the best?

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A.

I like the new moon.

It makes you feel like, “Ah, this is the beginning”.

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Q. (Yotsuba)

Noel-kun! Please give your rating for today!

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A.

I love you more than you think, and I love everyone more than all of you think.

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That’s all! Thank you for sending in so many questions last month!💌

I’ll be collecting them today until 9pm too!

Submit yours now! Send me lots and lots of them!✌️

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Well then, on to the main topic!

I thought that I should talk about AGT this month~!

I thought about it a lot, but all of the things I’ve been feeling recently have had to do with AGT, you know!

First off, the performance!🕺🎤

These are just my own thoughts! On that note, let’s go!

The base for the Japanese-style section was done by me and Chaka, and the base for the performance set to the song was done by Shime~!✨

Everyone discussed together about how we wanted to do the performance, and we went through a lo~t of discussion, before it turned into the final product that we performed!

We rehearsed pretty much every day, and the week right before the live semifinals was so packed that it was pretty tough on us, but it was a really wonderful experience!

The way the pre-performance interview was filmed also felt like a documentary, which was exciting, and it - together with the background - really made us feel like we’d finally made it onto AGT!! That made my heart pound.

As for the results, we did not advance on from the semifinals, and the buzzer was pressed during our performance as well, so it wasn’t something to be very joyful about, though😭

We talked about it on our Instalive the other day, but we gave it our all so that we’d move on to the final, and we had made preparations for it.

So we had felt pretty frustrated (with the result).

But, you know, in the end the realisation that this isn’t the time to feel frustrated won out!

Of course, at the start, we were frustrated!

After the performance, all of the members were reallyyy quiet, to the point where I was wondering who would speak first, or if someone would crack a joke…

We all returned to our rooms in silence, and after that, I had some time to reflect upon myself.

I wondered why I felt this frustrated, and at the same time I wondered if my dreams had come to an end here; that vortex of thoughts was how I felt at the time.

My state of mind was really complicated, but just like I wrote in my blog entry on the day itself, the things I’ll need to do now have become clear! That’s the biggest takeaway from this! And when I came to that conclusion, the frustrated feeling naturally went away.

It was great that this made for a “good memory”, but rather than letting it just stay as “something good”, I prefer to build upon it and use that to figure out what I should do next!

It’s a challenge I could have done precisely because I’m a Johnny’s Jr.

It’s thanks to them that I came to realise, that we should move ourselves forward such that if another chance for us to appear on TV comes around, we’ll be able to show off improved versions of ourselves!

I mean, that way you’ll be able to experience our story, thinking, “Eh? Aren’t those the guys from back then? Man, they’ve gotten good!”.

This job, being an idol, isn’t about just creating that one shining moment, but rather about sharing our drama and stories - that’s what I think!

You can be like, when I was doing ABC, Travis Japan was doing this kind of stuff. And back when I was doing XYZ, Travis Japan was doing that kind of stuff.

It would be nice if people could look back on their life in this way, and think to themselves, “That group was always there, by my side!”.

And then, to have them get excited, wondering how we’ll turn out from now on, and what kind of performances we’ll show them from now on! That’s my dream~.

There were both ups and downs, and precisely because it was the time for the real performance, we couldn’t simply have fun without any restraint. But even then, if we focus only on one thing and don’t look at anything else, we’d never change. We’d never create a story worth sharing, if we go on in that way.

That’s why, I personally think it was really, really huge that we got to take part in AGT!

I’m sure that one day when we look back on our lives in Johnnys’ and reminisce, AGT would definitely be an experience we’d talk about!

We wouldn’t be acting proud of it, saying “Hey, look, we were semifinalists! Tada!” or anything, but rather, we’d say that it’s precisely because we had this bittersweet experience that spurred us on, that we were able to accomplish what we did later on!

The fact that we got to appear on such a great show, that’s nothing to be ashamed of, after all.

I’ve appeared on countless quiz shows, and I’ve experienced many bitter memories from those, but when I reflected upon those experiences and thought about how I could do better, and put that into practice, I kept getting new offers! (Which made me really happy!)

To have won, to have lost, to have been unable to progress to the finals, to have mistakenly thought that I had not been able to fully show my true abilities - I’ve gained many of such experiences, and they are all assets!

I’ve done many jobs in the past, and I can say with pride that if I had not experienced even a single one of them, I would not be where I am today, with my level of experience!

I’ll never forget the things that this AGT experience has taught me!

I’ll be proud of the fact that we made it this far, and take it on board as something to work on from now on!

Thinking about it that way, on that night I reflected on myself, I was instantly able to regain my footing! I’m facing my current self with everything I have! What’s wrong with that!

I want to become able to sing more comfortably!

I want to get better at speaking English!

I want to see everyone’s smiles soon!

I want to laugh along with e~veryone!

We’ve come all this way, after all!!

I want to do a concert! Seriously, that might be my number 1 wish right now!

I want us to become the “best” out there, the kind who can give their 120% in their performances at the most critical times, and who have luck on their side as well!

We’re not at that point yet! This is our starting point! In order to become people who’ll be loved by all, we won’t just do the bare minimum, but we’ll go above and beyond that!

Self-reflection is important!

But what’s more important is what happens after that reflection!

A line of work where you can turn the love you receive from others regularly into your own power is truly the best, isn’t it!

Because it means you’re not alone!

Once again…

Thank you for always loving me!

Just a little more! Just do your best for just a little longer today!💪

If my feelings and activities can become something that helps you along in your daily life, I’d be happy!☺️

First off, thank you so much for supporting us all this way! Please take care of us from now on and forever, too!

And then, we’ll do our best so that you’ll be able to look forward to even more than you already have right now!

Finally, I love you from the bottom of my heart! It might seem like a very common thing to say, but it’s what I truly feel!

That’s all! This is Travis Japan, signing of-

That’s not it; this is Kawashima Noel, signing off!✌️

Yours ever,

Sep. 14th 2022

Noel Kawashima

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P.S.

Man! Seriously!

I thought I’d write a shorter blog entry this month, and in the end this is what I ended up with!

I wanted to make the entries easier to read, too!🧐

I take at least 3 days to write them, and I’m sure you’d take a substantial amount of time to read them too, right?!

How was this? Something of this length is considered “long” still, I guess?🤔

Hmmm! What a dilemma!

If I get the chance to get filmed more, then I’d be able to talk about a lot more things (in these blog entries)!

If that happened, then I’d be able to simply summarise how I feel in the moment! Or how I’m really feeling!

Alright, I’ve got to work harder!💪

I’m sure it’s just out there! That kind of a future!

I’m thinking of advancing Noemaru into its 3rd… iteration? Phase? next month, so please let me know what you think of the current format~!

Well then, I’ll see you in tomorrow’s Noemaru☺️

Good night!🤍

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