[JWEB] Kawashima Noel (Noemaru) - 14 April 2022

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Happy mid-April; it's Noemaru day! I've been looking forward to this one since it's his first entry since they went to LA ^^

Noe-san talks a bit about life in LA, living with the other members of TJ and how they've gotten closer, and also about a dream he had that made him realise something important! It's really sappy, ahaha

Noel's been collecting questions for a Q&A, so I might translate that when it's out, too! ^^

Short note: I'm trying something different this month and trying to retain Noe-san's emoji in the blog entry, since LJ seems to be able to support it~

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Noemaru - Regular update 14 April 2022 (6pm JST)

It’s Kawashima Noel of Travis Japan ☺️

☺️ ←I like this emoji~! I’ll use it a lot~!

And with that! It’s my regular update for April~! ☺️🤍

It’s the first regular update since we went to Los Angeles (LA) for our study trip in late March!✨

….Oi, oi! You’re on a study trip?!💥

There might be some people who may say something like that,

And this time round I want to once again convey my love and gratitude to “Noe-tans”,

So now I’d like to update you on the recent happenings of Travis Japan that have happened recently~ (*´꒳`*)

Recent happenings… that happened recently…? 🤔

…The current situation right now…

…A right turn to the right…

…The clear top winner…

Sighh _(:3」z)_

[T/N: Noel is making fun of how he ended up using repetitive words]

Alriiight. There’s a troublesome guy over here~~~  _(:3」z)_

Well, that’s just me, but please do take good care of me ☺️

I’m grateful that this blog can reach people anywhere in the world, and it would be great if my thoughts could come across today as well~ (*´꒳`*)

Well then, it would be great if you would read this while relaxing! _(:3」z)_ ＼ｸﾞﾃﾞｰﾝ／

First off! I’d like to report that I’m slowly getting used to life here, and have managed to establish a daily routine~ ☺️

In addition to English and dance lessons, and vocal lessons, I’m also diligently doing a whole suite of household chores, such as cooking and laundry!

On days where I don’t move my body as much, I train up using a game where you exercise and go on an adventure! 💪

My level in-game is increasing, and I feel like I’m getting stronger~! (lol)

“Slow and steady wins the race”, after all! ☺️

I’m happy I’m able to tell you about my routine like this! ✨

Can you believe~ That you’d hear this from an idol~

You probably never thought you’d get real-time updates daily like “I’m cooking~!” or “Doing the laundry and cleaning is really tough~!”, right?! (lol)

Well then, what’s my position? 🤔

I’m happy that all sorts of kindness have permeated our family, from things like “we shouldn’t do the laundry at a time when people are sleeping☺️”, and on days when the plan is to make more food than usual, to invite the other members like “does anyone want to eat with me?🤔”

Everyone is truly so warm-hearted! 🤍

To have things you’re good and bad at is just part of being human, and to understand that and support one another is also part of being human.

It feels like we’ve surpassed being members or close friends, and as I’ve written above, we’re becoming “family” ✨

Generally I make dinner everyday, and in this period I’ll eat dinner with Umi every night, you know~! 💚

Recently I made curry for all the members, and I even made curry udon with the leftover curry! 🍛

Yesterday I also made 3 portions of omurice and shared it with everyone~!

There’s still some curry ingredients left over, so the plan is to make curry once more sometime this week! (lol)

Curry’s really amazing; you can adjust the amount based on your stomach condition 😏

Of course, I’m planning to make many other types of food too, so I’d be happy if you checked the Toramaru of the other members too (*´꒳`*)

I wonder how many portions I’ve made by now? How many types of dishes I’ve made by now?

I’d like to put out a recipe book sometime, maybe!

“The taste that that Kaito approves of! Noel Meals!”

[T/N: Kaito here refers to Umi (Nakamura Kaito)]

…Nah. Yeah. I’ve got no naming sense.

When I think about it again now, this home truly feels like I’m living a dream, “living with my oshi”. Seriously.

…🤔

I mean, I’m a Travis Japan stan after all!

It might be “living with my oshi”, but of course there’s a whole bunch of difficulties too, y’know!

I mean, there’s 7 of us! Under one roof!

Some days are really quiet, and other days are su~~~~~~per lively. (lol)

Particularly the 3 members of Beni Kujaku! Those kids… ah, seriously! (lol)

But in the end, I think “it’s nice to be this lively” and end up smiling, so all’s Good 👍 (lol)

It’s 100 times better than dead silence! (lol)

YBNK! (Of course, it’s Beni Kujaku!) When I say that the 3 of them cackle, which I like, so I tend to suddenly say it when everyone’s forgotten about it (lol)

Sometimes they drag me in, which is also quite fun, and I like that too! (lol)

Shizu’s always watching YouTube while stretching or doing muscle training, and sometimes when I notice it he’s studying English! Oh, and he sleeps a lot. (lol)

Umi’s seriously good at thinking of others, and he’s soooo kind!

Like if someone’s alarm starts ringing and goes on ringing early in the morning, he’ll tolerate it because he’s kind like that! (lol)

Shime’s generally shut in his room, which makes me think “what is he up to?🤔” How strange~ (lol) It really feels like he’s like, the very definition of going at his own pace! How cute.

Everyone has their own pace, but for this first month the plan has been to do everything as a group, like everyone will go for lessons or to the supermarket together, and I think we’ve become more able to understand each other’s way of thinking ☺️

But, but, I want to understand them more, and I always think I should understand them more! ✨

It’s like, I want to find more parts of them I respect, in preparation for when we’ll be together forever, you know? ☺️

Since we have this chance, it would be great if we could pass the days while not forgetting to enjoy ourselves! ✨

Be positive, be positive~ (*´꒳`*)

And also!

I had a lot of fun doing my solo Instagram live (Instalive) recently~! Thank you so much~! ✨

The fact that the members popped in from time to time, and that they stayed awake till the end, I thought that was really kind of them~!

10,000 days, an occasion worth commemorating! (And an event I personally want to make a regular thing!)

It was solo and I was the first one, so I felt pretty nervous, but I managed to identify areas for improvement, and more than anything else everyone made me happy, so it became the best memory!

Really, thank you so much! (*´꒳`*)

Did I also manage to make you happy?

It would be great if I did~ ☺️

My ideal relationship is one where I’m able to wish that my precious person is happy, think that I want to make them happy, and swear that I’ll make them happy, you know (*´꒳`*)

That’s the path I would like to live on.

So that I can turn that dream into a reality, I’ll keep building up my diligence and experience daily!

It’s a promise💍

Returning to the topic of the Instalive!

I received a surprise present from the members, and I was able to be with everyone when the date changed in LA, and it was a 35 minutes where I created so many memories I’d never be able to finish talking about them!

It’s been archived, so for those of you who haven’t watched it yet, please relax somewhere like in the bath and watch it~ ☺️

If you click the playback button on travis Japan’s account, it’ll be easier to search for the Instalive archive that way~ (lol)

At the WORLD OF DANCE (WOD), which we took on immediately after arriving in America, we received 3 awards and met the criteria for 3rd place, securing our successful passing of the auditions~! ✨

We talked about our feelings and thoughts at the time during our 3 April Instalive (it’s archived!), and we filmed something for YouTube too so look forward to it, okay~ ☺️

Ah… It’s kinda deep… It hasn’t even been a month…!

There’s many more things I want to talk about, but if I talk too much, then I’d accidentally end up answering everyone’s questions, so I’ll purposefully end it here!

And, speaking of which, I’m collecting questions!

Until what time?!

9pm (JST) tonight…! You know!!!

Wow! That’s pretty soon!

…Or it might already be over…? How is it? 🤔

If it’s already over, sorry~ (T ^ T)

It would be great if I could collect more in the future! I’ll let you know! ✨ (lol)

I’d be happy if I got to answer all sorts of questions ☺️

I might even talk about “the percentage of the rooms”?! (If you watch my Instalive you’ll know the context! lol)

[T/N: Someone during Noel’s solo Instalive wanted to ask about their room allocation, but they accidentally typed the kanji characters for “percentage” instead]

And with that, this is the end of this month’s regular update!

It’s a regular update that’s much shorter than previous ones,

But since I’m updating pretty much twice a day now, I’ve been writing down everything I want to say every day without holding back anything in reserve, you see~ ☺️

Please come and casually check in, like “I wonder if he’s updated already~✨” (*´꒳`*)

Yours ever,

April 14th, 2022

Noel Kawashima

((My dear…))

This is the segment where I’m like, “I won’t end it so abruptly~”.

It’s not really a post-script, but simply, it’s a segment I’m writing because I want to convey my thoughts to Noe-tans.

I’m calling it a segment, so it feels like “the usual”, but actually I’m trying this for the first time, y’know.

I’m the type to leave the strawberry from the shortcake all the way to the very end.

It’s something like that. Fufufu.

In terms of a set meal, I’m the type who prefers the pickles. This is totally unrelated, isn’t it.

It didn’t even help to set the mood. Fufufu.

I’ll talk about something really strange that happened to me recently, something I’m having trouble believing.

At first, it gave me a chill, but as time passed I came to understand what it meant, and I want to share my thoughts about it with you.

I wonder how or why it started?🤔

Perhaps it’s because I’ve had more chances to face myself ever since coming to LA?

The “me” of right now, I wonder if he’s an idol.

Or, is it the “me” that’s just an ordinary person.

Of course, I’m both of those, but I had this dream just about the time that I was thinking about these things.

I was in darkness with no sense of direction, and I was facing a presence that looked exactly like me, something like that?

It was different from the reversed reflection I’d see in the mirror, it was a presence entirely different from my true self, and it was staring straight at me.

And then, as that other ‘me’ stared straight at me, he laughed, and said this:

“Don’t let go of my hand.”

At first, I felt shaken, but I couldn’t forget about that dream, and I recalled it many times over while thinking about it.

Don’t they say that dreams come from your subconscious?

I have no clue who that other ‘me’ was.

Whether that other ‘me’ was my idol self, or my regular self, I don’t have any intention of letting go either, and so I wondered why he would say something like that, and as I thought about it, I came up with this answer.

No matter how much you understand something, it’s always the most important to put it into words.

It must have been that some part of my heart, somewhere, had been feeling lonely.

It might have also been that “I” was feeling lost, having had a 180-degree change in my daily life and being thrust into a brand-new environment.

And, I acknowledge that this is not something that’s limited to just me.

Precisely because of that, I want to keep on putting this properly into words.

I want to keep conveying this, always and forever.

Because these feelings won’t ever change.

In order that the ‘me’ of right now won’t forget who he is, in order that he won’t lose his confidence in himself, I’ll remember that I’m loved by someone else.

And, at the same time, I’ll remember that I love, too.

To hold something dear, and to be held dear.

I’m currently living amidst this balance.

I wish that you will be happy today, too.

That is my wish, and also my happiness.

Today, too, I love you, and that won’t change.

I’ll love you more tomorrow than I do today, and I’ll love you more the day after than I do tomorrow.

Please, always stay with me.

Fufu.

My dear.